I've Tried

I've Tried
I tried too hard, so many times. Only to get knocked down.
I tried to findThe one who's right for me. A relationship to fulfill.
Every want, need, and feeling.
I've tried to fill the hole, that takes up half my heart. Throughout my life.
Everything I've tried, has crumbled and fallen apart. I've tried to hold back the tears. But they unleash all my hidden fears.
When I think I've found the one, I try to make it work. I've tried too hard. Or not hard enough. Through all the mistakes.
Through all the heartaches.
I've tried to not let, that hole get any bigger. I'm sick of all the games. I'm sick of all the lies. Endless timesI've tried to stop all of this. I've tried to hide my deep feelings, but everything inside of me is crying. I'm trying to not let. My deep lust for love die.
I try so hard.
I try too much.
But nothing ever gets me anywhere.
I don't think I can wait much longer. Soon there won't be anything left.
Love will find me when it's ready.
But for now, I'm done trying.